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Crying Abba Father

Crying Abba Father

Suffering and hope. Life and peace through the Spirit. Calling out Abba Father. No condemnation. Romans 8 is full of goodness. I was 15 when Romans 8 first captured and broke my hardened heart. It is now 10 years later, and the Lord is still […]

Learning the path to love.

Learning the path to love.

Humility. What a word. What a strange and rare and beautiful thing. The Lord started putting the word humility on my heart this past Sunday morning. I have been reading A Loving Life by Paul Miller slowly for the past few months. This Sunday morning, […]

I have a disability.

I have a disability.

When I am honest with myself and slow down, I realize that I have a disability. Narcolepsy, jaw pain, and Raynaud’s disease limit my ability to cope with life everyday. Without medication, I cannot drive. With medication, I still have to be very careful and […]

A Truly Blessed Man

A Truly Blessed Man

Up until the fall of 2017, all four of my grandparents were alive. It is now the winter of 2019, and both of my dad’s parents are no longer with us. Last Saturday was the memorial service for my granddad, and today I spent the […]

Learning How to Die

Learning How to Die

I’ve been reading about the trinity and the Holy Spirt lately.  The Holy Spirit can be experienced as the vague unknown person of the trinity. In my church background, there wasn’t a lot of talk about the Holy Spirit. As a child, I heard and […]

Mascara running down my face

Mascara running down my face

I do enjoy writing. There is freedom in writing and letting my thoughts run free. I forget the things I love. I get stuck on duty and responsibility and all the “shoulds” and “shouldn’ts.” My husband is good to me. He helps me see things […]

Narcolepsy: my complicated and invisible disorder

Narcolepsy: my complicated and invisible disorder

Ignorance is bliss One of my first exposures to understanding narcolepsy was a Youtube video of a dog with narcolepsy. The video shows the dog experiencing loss of muscle of control and inaccurately describes the symptom as an inability to stay awake at any given […]

Seeing all of you

Seeing all of you

We all have pet peeve sins that get under our skin and make us itch. Jon, my husband, and I have different pet peeve sins – something we’ve known about each other for a while. I hate arrogance and dishonesty in all forms, and I […]

Whatever is true

Whatever is true

I want to be filled with truth. It is easy to become numb to the unhealthy sexuality, violence, and evil in this world. A few blocks from where I live is a store that sells cheap lingerie and sex toys. I’ve never walked inside, but […]

Letting go of judgement

Letting go of judgement

Who can say that they care very little if they are judged by others? Who doesn’t self critique their interactions and judge themselves? The apostle Paul says that he cares very little if he is judged, and does not even judge himself (1 Corinthians 4:3). […]