Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.
Hi. I'm Allison.
I decided to make this website because a book named The Road Back to You suggested that people with my personality type should pick up a hobby that we enjoy, but don’t feel particularly good at. I have enjoyed writing for as long as I can remember, but it is something that I have mostly kept private. The idea of sharing my thoughts, ideas, and struggles with the world is intimidating, and it has been hard for me to see the value in taking time to write publicly when I don’t feel particularly gifted at it.
The good news is that I am starting to see that it is not all about how talented I am, and that it is good for me to let go of needing to be perfect in order to enjoy writing and the beautiful gift it is to me.
Besides being a perfectionist and into personality tests, I am a newly married woman in her mid-twenties with narcolepsy, chronic pain, and a passion for righting the wrong I see in the world. I have experienced profound joy, and I have lain in bed wishing that I would die. I have loved deeply, and I have wounded others in ways that I might never know. Life is rarely steady, and neither am I most of the time. In all of my victories and failures, there has been one thing that has remained the same, and that one thing is what has kept me alive and breathing this far. That one thing is the love of Jesus Christ that He displayed to me through his life, death, and resurrection.
I know that there are a lot of different thoughts and viewpoints about Christianity and those that claim to know Him as their savior, and that by proclaiming the love of Christ, I am setting myself up to be judged. I know that faith is not easy and that there are a lot of false things being preached in the name of Jesus Christ. It is not easy for me to follow Christ most days, but I know that it is what matters most because of the beauty that I have witnessed through His love and life. Living with narcolepsy and other persistent health issues is something that has often made me feel alone, but I know that I am not actually alone in the trials that I face. I desire to share what it is like for me to live day-to-day with health issues, and I desire to connect with others more as I share my thoughts and stories.
I know that through Christ, I have been awakened from my spiritual sleepiness. I am now free to live fully, and I am no longer bound to this world and the evil within it. Although I am physically asleep more than most people during the day, I am not spiritually asleep – and that matters much more. My hope is that I communicate truth and love through this blog.
I know that Christ works through the humble, meek, and weak, so that is what I hope to be. I know that I won’t be perfect, but I am not trusting in my perfection. Instead, I am trusting that Christ’s power is made perfect in my weakness.